Postingan yg amadh sangadh tidak penting

I'm really sorry this time I make a post 'bout my private problem although I've promised that I won't make such post, but I just don't know whom I can share this problem with.
That's why, I made the title of my post like that.

I just wanna say to someone out there,,
I don't know that trying to forget about you can make me so hurt like this..
Made me suffering..
Made me in pain.
If I can turn back the time, I wish I never knew you.
I regret myself why I could fall in love with you..
I hate myself for loving you, coz loving you just made me crying and crying instead of smiling and laughing..
There were more pain than the happiness..
But why I can't stop myself for loving you!
And now, when I'm trying to erase all memories 'bout you, there is such pain in my heart, bitter..

How and how..
God, tell me the way to delete him in my head..